Shattered Dreams

' Umeed pe Duniya Kayam Hai '

Translated in English, it means that the ' World Rests on Hope. '

The validity of this oft repeated maxim cannot be denied. No matter how pragmatic one considers himself, somewhere deep inside, it is the faint glimmer of hope which drives him in his daily pursuits.

I'm using 'Hope' to refer to a myriad of words, one of them being 'Dreams'. Words do have their individual, defined meaning. But I feel that when one reflects on his life, at times they all seem to be linked together. This hope, for whatever it may be, guides us in times of confusion or pushes us to achieve in times of despair. I just stays there, in our life, at the back of our mind. It stays there so long that we unconsciously assume it to be a permanent entity. Just as when we look at a range of mountains in the horizon for a long time. Shadows of the mountains change directions, the clouds fly by but the range just stays there.

It is around this very hope that we start living our lives, thinking that life is heading for the better, while in absolute reality it leads us to a state of being abject and miserable.

Success is the only way to prove this wrong. But for every success there are thousands of failures, followed by thousands of Shattered Dreams, uncovering the thousands of False Hopes.

Miserable may very vaguely express what I am right now, for I had the audacity to have Dreams. Dreams which have been shattered completely. I am not challenging the fact that they have been shattered because it had to happen someday. It is an apt punishment for the crime I committed by harbouring a Desire to lead my life. But still, now that it is gone, there is nothing to explain my state of being. Nothing at all.

I feel as if don't know myself. Rather, never knew myself.

There is a deafening silence when one enters a morose tomb. I have become that tomb, and the silence is of the emptiness within me. The person who I thought existed within me was never there. The mountains of hope have vanished into thin air. And I shall live this way forever.

Such is the Agony of being in One - Sided Love!!